by email@example.com - February 21 2005
From the time we left that cabin that Sunday, Cole’s whole attitude towards me seemed to change. He took my feelings more into consideration. He didn’t take for granted that I would always go along with everything he wanted. Where before, he had always taken the lead in everything - on and off the field - now he began to let me take the lead more in our personal life. I began to initiate sex more rather than waiting for him. I also decided that I wanted to change my college major.
Cole had this idea that we should both do pre-Law so that we could go to Law School together and then open our own firm or join our Dads’. But I decided I wasn’t the least bit interested in being a lawyer. I wanted to write and so I wanted to major in Journalism. I think it somewhat bothered my mom that I didn’t want to be an attorney like dad, but he seemed to take it without any problem at all.
We reported to football camp and were housed in the ‘Jock’ dorm. All the guys on our floor were from the football team and we were all in two-man rooms. This gave Cole and I some privacy - as long as we kept the door locked and didn’t scream while having sex. But we had to share bathroom and shower facilities down the hall so there were no more long, sensual showers with each other. But there wasn’t a lot of time for that, anyway.
College football is nothing like high school, we found to our surprise. First of all, we went from being ‘hot-shit’ seniors and the jock idols of our high school to being nothing but a pair of ‘punk’ freshmen who were considered just like all the other ‘punk’ freshmen - fair game! The practices were rough and it was somewhat daunting to have 300 lb. linemen chasing you, or worse, falling on you!
But Cole’s ‘golden arm’ began to show itself and the almost magical way that we worked together on the field began to be noticed by the coaches and other players. They teamed us up more and more, leading Cole and I to believe that they were looking at us to replace some of the seniors when the year was over.
It was well known that we had been friends since childhood and played on the same teams, so our closeness wasn’t questioned. And since we were always careful never to show any indication of how we felt each other outside of our room, we figured that nobody had any idea of our true relationship. This wasn’t exactly true however.
One dark, chilly afternoon, late in the fall, I was sitting in our room. Cole was at class and I was working on a research project, when I heard a knock at the door. I didn’t figure it was Cole since he wouldn’t knock. I got up and answered it and there stood Micah Calvin. Micah was about my height and size. He had light brown hair and green eyes. He was a very well built, muscular and very good looking. Micah was a junior and, like me, a wide receiver. He also roomed with Vince Calzano, the senior quarterback and captain of the team. I had understood that they had roomed together since Micah was a freshman and Vince was a sophomore. I was a little surprised to have Micah knocking at our door. As far as I knew, Micah and Vince barely knew who Cole and I were.
“Hi!” Micah said. “I saw your light on under the door. I think you and I are the only ones here. I was going to make some coffee but we’re out of coffee and I didn’t feel like running to the store right now. Do you have any coffee I can borrow?” he asked.
I asked Micah to come in. I told him we had coffee but also I had just made a pot and would he like a cup. He sat down at Cole’s desk and gratefully accept the cup and I asked him how he liked it.
“Light and sweet, just like I like my men.” he said.
The breath caught in my throat. I couldn’t believe what he’d just said to me. I looked at Micah and I’m sure the shock on my face showed. He merely grinned and winked at me. I continued on getting him a cup of coffee but as I went to hand it to him, my hand was shaking so badly, I nearly spilled it.
“Whoa there, buddy! Take it easy!” Micah said, taking the cup from my trembling hand. “I didn’t mean to upset you.” he said smiling.
“You didn’t. I just didn’t expect...uh...” I stuttered.
“You didn’t expect me to say something like that? Something that might tell you that I was gay?” he asked, again giving me a big grin.
“Yeah. Something like that.” I said, and then I paused before hesitantly asking, “Are you?”
“Yeah, I am.” he said, still smiling at me.
“Does Vince know?” I asked, which has to rate as one of the dumbest questions ever asked!
Micah started laughing so hard, he almost fell off the desk chair.
“Well, I guess he does!” he finally got out. “Considering he’s my lover!”
I just sat there stunned. Cole and I had been so careful about not letting anyone know about us because we figured there wouldn’t be anybody else on the team who were gay. And now, here was the leading wide receiver telling me that he and the quarterback were lovers!
“We’ve been lovers since my freshman year. When Vince sees what he wants, he goes for it! I didn’t play hard to get or anything. I’d played around some in high school but never had a lover. I’d had a few crushes on guys, but kept them to myself. Actually being in love with a guy is a whole different experience though. So, how long have you and Cole been lovers?” he asked.
“How did you know? What gave us away?” I asked, completely taken aback at what was happening here.
“The eyes, buddy! The eyes! They always give you away. You know, ‘the eyes are the windows of the soul’ and all that. I could tell the way you two look at each other. Actually, it was Vince who figured it out first. You two remind Vince and I a lot of ourselves a couple of years ago. Now, don’t get worried. Nobody else would pick up on it. It’s just that Vince and I are kind of ‘attuned’, if you get my meaning.” he said.
“I’m sorry to act so weird about this.” I said, knowing my nerves were still showing. “Cole and I have been very careful not to let anyone know. We figured it would not make us very popular if anybody found out.”
“I understand. Vince and I don’t exactly wear wedding rings or anything ourselves. But we’re not the only one’s on the team. There just aren’t any other ‘couples’. So, how long have you and Cole been together?” he asked.
“We grew up together. We’ve always been together. We started having sex when we were kids and finally admitted what we meant to each other during our senior year. It was hard thing for us to admit to each other.” I told him. “How did you and Vince get together?”
“Quite by accident, actually. Vince’s room mate from his freshman year had moved off campus. They assigned me to room with Vince. I think I fell for him the moment we met. But I was so scared he would find out how I felt about him that I did everything in the world to push him away from me! I had no idea that he felt the same way. If it hadn’t been for the fight, I don’t know if we’d have ever known how we felt about each other.” Micah said.
“What fight?” I asked.
“Oh, nothing serious. One day, I was acting like a shit. I knew what I was doing, I just couldn’t stop myself. I wanted Vince so much. I was so sure that he’d never have anything to do with me, or with any guy, that it kind of made me become nasty to him.” he said.
“Why did you do that?” I asked.
“I was trying so hard to mask how I felt about him, I guess I went the other way. Anyway, he’d had enough of it and we actually got into a fight. He pushed me and I pushed him back. Then we ended up across one of our beds wrestling. At one point, Vince had me down on my back and he was over me. I guess it was at that point that both of us noticed that we had hardons and they were pressing against each other.” Micah laughed, and I could tell by the softness in his eyes that this was a very cherished memory he was sharing with me.
“So what happened then?” I asked.
“ Like I said, I’d had some experience with other guys in high school but nothing serious. However, even I could figure out that something in what we were doing on was turning Vince on. When he saw that I noticed, he got very red in the face and tried to get up off me. I grabbed hold of him, though, and wouldn’t let him. The next thing I knew, he was kissing me and I was totally lost in him! Nothing I’d experienced before in high school prepared me for it! No guy had ever kissed me before. In fact, nobody had ever kissed me the way Vince did.” he said.
“And that started it.” I said, not so much a question as a statement of fact.
“Yep! Seems old Vince had the hots for me as well. Guess we were both a little too good at hiding things from each other. Or we were so busy hiding that we never even really noticed each other.” he admitted.
I got up to get another cup of coffee and asked Micah if he wanted one, too. He agreed and I fixed us both another cup. I couldn’t help wondering just exactly why Micah had sought me out and was telling me all of this.
“It was pretty much like that for Cole and I.” I said, handing him the coffee and sitting back at my desk opposite him. “We’d started out doing the kid thing - you know, jacking off together then jacking each other off. Later we got into oral sex. But it was the night that we won the state championship, when Cole threw the winning touchdown pass and I caught it, that we finally admitted to each other how we really felt. We made love for the first time that night. I won’t ever forget it.” I shared with him as he’d done with me.
“So you’ve guys been together a long time. Are you faithful to each other or do you play around.” he asked.
I was hesitant about answering. The episode last summer was still a painful one to me. Micah noticed my hesitation.
“Hey, I’m sorry. I didn’t mean to pry. Just forget I asked.” Micah said, showing concern on his face.
“No, it’s not that. We had something happen last summer which nearly tore us apart. We’d never had sex with anybody but each other. One night, at a party, Cole had a little too much to drink and ended up fucking some girl. It really blew me away and I ended up sleeping with the girl’s best friend’s brother. I guess to get even with Cole. But it was a dumb thing to do. I realize that now. Just because he fucked somebody, didn’t give me the right to. But I was so hurt and didn’t know what to do. I ended up hurting the guy, too. He really had feelings for me and I guess I started having feelings for him as well. It’s been tough getting over the whole thing.” I admitted for the first time to anyone.
“God, BJ, I’m really sorry! I can understand why you’re so upset about it! If I caught Vince fucking a girl, I’d cut his fucking nuts off!” Micah grinned at me.
“It wasn’t just the fact that it was a girl.” I told him. “It was the fact that he’d slept with somebody else! That’s what hurt me.”
“Well, you’re a lot more understanding than I would be! It would be the issue that it was a girl for me! After all, I can compete with any guy. But if the guy can’t decide what sex he wants to sleep with - I’ll pass on him! I don’t trust these guys who claim to be ‘Bi’. They play with you, play with your emotions and then run off to women so that they can be ‘normal’. No way I’m getting involved with one of those!” Micah said.
“I don’t think Cole would ever do something like that! I think he was just drunk - and probably curious. I mean, I’m not interested in having sex with a girl, but some guys want to know what it feels like, I guess. But Cole was so upset about the thought of me leaving him for this other guy, I don’t think he’ll ever risk that again.” I said.
“Well, I hope you’re right, for your sake.” Micah said.
“Please don’t tell Cole I told you about this. I’ve never told anyone. I didn’t have anybody I could talk to about it.” I begged Micah.
“Don’t worry about it. My lips are sealed!” and he laughed.
“So, what about you and Vince. Are you faithful to each other.” I asked.
“Well, in our own way, I guess. We do play around - both together and individually. Vince and I decided that it’s natural for guys to want to have as much sex as possible with as many different partners as possible especially while we’re young. After all, monogamy was invented by heterosexuals and it had to do with property and title inheritance. Since neither one of us is going to get pregnant by another guy and bring a strange baby home to raise, it’s not an issue to us. What is an issue is emotional fidelity. When we’re out tricking or having a three-way, that’s just for fun. Nothing more. We know who we love and who we’re coming home to. And we never let any ‘outside activities’ get in the way of our being together. But the variety does bring a little spice to our love life.” Micah confided.
“But making love is so much better than just sex!” I said.
“Well, I used to think that way, too. But I realized it’s not an either/or situation. Sex just for fun is not as meaningful as making love to Vince, but it’s still an awful lot of fun! After all, I’ve never had a bad orgasm. Have you?” he grinned.
“No....but I just wouldn’t feel right about cheating on Cole or him cheating on me, either.” I said.
“I would never think of ‘cheating’ on Vince! None of this is ‘cheating’. I don’t sneak around and neither does he. We’re honest with each other about what and who we’re doing. I’ve seen guys who have lovers and make their lovers think that they’re being faithful and all the time they’re tricking behind their backs! Now, that’s cheating!” he said.
These were all very new ideas to me. I wasn’t exactly sure if I agreed with them or not. I knew there wasn’t anybody else that I wanted to sleep with but Cole. I didn’t love anybody else and I didn’t want to have sex with a guy I didn’t love.
“Well, I don’t know if that would work for me and Cole.” I said.
“It doesn’t have to! I’m not advocating that you two have an open relationship. I was just telling you what Vince and I do. I will admit, if you had an open relationship, I think both Vince and I would try to get you into our bed!” he laughed.
I blushed at this and he laughed harder.
“Oh, now I’ve embarrassed you! I’m sorry. I just seem to be putting my feet in my mouth all over the place today. And it’s the last thing in the world I wanted to do!” Micah said.
“No, it’s all right. I’m just not used to guys telling me that they’re attracted to me.” I said.
“Boy, they must be fucking blind where you come from! BJ, if somebody hasn’t told you - you’re a hunk!” Micah said, smiling and giving me another wink.
I blushed again, and got up to get another cup of coffee.
“You want some more?” I asked him.
“Why not! I’m gonna have to stay up and study tonight anyway.” he said.
I brought him another cup and sat down with mine.
“Actually, there is someone who tells me that I’m good-looking. Cole.” I said quietly.
“And that means more than any proposition you could ever get. I know, believe me. When Vince looks at me and I know he’s just eating me up with his eyes, I get a hardon so quickly, you’d think I was on Viagra!” Micah laughed.
I was really starting to like him. His sense of humor was infectious and it was really nice to be able to actually talk to someone else who understood how I felt and could accept who I was.
“Now, I’ll bet you’re wondering why I came knocking on your door like this. The coffee excuse was rather lame. But, I’m on a mission. I have clear orders to get to know you and Cole.” he said.
“And who gave you those orders?” I asked.
“Vince, of course!” he grinned. “I told you, there are no other ‘couples’ on the team. I’ll introduce you eventually to the other guys who are gay, but Vince and I wanted to get to know you and Cole because we didn’t have anyone who understood what it’s like to be in a committed relationship.”
“Yes, it is different, isn’t it. I don’t know what I’d do if I had to go out and find someone! I don’t know if I could.” I said.
“You could! Trust me! You wouldn’t have to look very hard, either. With your looks, they’d be lining up outside your door.” Micah said grinning.
“Yeah, but they’d be looking for something different than I would be looking for.” I said.
“Be that as it may, you could still have a lot of fun finding what you’re looking for.” Micah laughed.
“If I lost Cole, I don’t think I would be having a lot of fun.” I said.
“Well, I can see that. Anyway, we don’t have to worry about that, do we?” Micah smiled again.
“No, we don’t. And I’ve got to tell you, I can’t thank Vince enough for sending you! I’ve never had the chance to talk to somebody else who was gay, much less also in a relationship. I can’t begin to tell you how much this means to me.” I told Micah.
“Great! I feel exactly the same way. How do you think Cole will feel?” he asked.
“Well, I know that he has a lot of respect for Vince. I can’t see how this will make him anything but happy. It will give us both a chance to be around someone we don’t have to hide our relationship from.” I answered.
“Listen, I do have studying to do, but what do you say the four of us go out for pizza Friday night?” Micah asked.
“I’d say we’d love it!” I said.
“Then it’s a date! Vince will reward me tonight for my successful mission!” he laughed.
“Then I’m glad for you! I think Cole might be in the mood to reward me as well.” I laughed as well.
Cole got back to our room several hours later. I was still working on my study project when he came in.
“So, how did your day go?” he asked.
“I’ve had a very interesting afternoon.” I told him. “And we have a date for pizza Friday night.”
“With who?” he asked, seemingly confused by my announcement.
“Vince and Micah.” I said, not elaborating.
“Vince Calzano and Micah Calvin?!” he asked, shock showing in his voice.
“You know another Vince and Micah?” I asked, smiling, enjoying this little game.
“Why the fuck do they want to go out for pizza with us?” he asked, unable to put any of this together.
“Well, according to Micah, they want to get to know us better.” I said.
“Us? Why us?” he asked, still confused.
“Because, as Micah said, they don’t know any other committed couples on the team.” I said, grinning like a Cheshire Cat.
“They don’t know any other WHAT?!!” he all but screamed.
“They don’t know any other couples on the team. It seems that Vince and Micah have been lovers since Micah’s freshman year.” I told him.
“Fuck! You’re not serious about this, are you?!” he slumped into the chair at his desk.
“I’m absolutely serious! Trust me, I was completely blown away when Micah told me!” I informed him.
“How did it happen anyway?!” he asked.
“Well, it seems they were wrestling on the bed one day when....”
“No!!! Not that! How did he tell you about it!” Cole interrupted.
“Oh, that.” I giggled.
“Yes! That!” he fumed.
“Micah knocked on the door this afternoon and gave me this story about wanting to borrow coffee. I’d just brewed a pot so I asked him in for some. When I asked him how he liked his coffee, his exact words were ‘light and sweet, like I like my men’.” I told Cole, watching for the reaction on his face. I wasn’t disappointed.
“Fuck! He just came out with it like that!” I thought Cole’s eyebrows were going to join his hairline.
“Yep. Just like that. Seems he and Vince had already figured out that we were lovers. They just wanted to let us know we weren’t alone.” I told him.
“Oh, Christ! How did they figure it out? We’ve been so careful!” Cole moaned.
“Well...according to Micah, careful in everything except our eyes. He said Vince and he could tell by the way we look at each other. He said that nobody else would figure it out, but that they were ‘attuned’ - as he put it.” I tried to alleviate his concern.
“But I still don’t get it. Why do they want to go out with us?” Cole asked.
“I got the feeling from Micah that they kind of feel lonely and left out of things in a way. Micah told me that there were other guys on the team who were gay, but none of them had lovers. Micah also told me that he and Vince play around both separately and together but I got the feeling they didn’t get to do much that was social with these guys they were playing around with. I think they’re looking to us for friendship. Someone they can be comfortable with because we can understand what’s going on with them.” I said.
“I hope you told them that we don’t play around.” Cole said quietly. “I don’t want to ever go through what happened last summer again.”
“Yes, I told Micah that. He seemed fine with it. However, he did say some things that got me to thinking. And there’s something I need to talk to you about.” I said.
“Does it have to do with last summer?” he asked, a note of fear showing in his voice.
“Yes. It does.” I said.
“I really wish you wouldn’t then! I’ve tried everything I know to put that out of my mind.” Cole said seriously.
“I understand that. But I think that this is something that you need to hear. And it’s something that I need to say.” I said just as seriously.
“Ok. If you need to get it off your chest.” Cole said, like a man agreeing to a firing squad, his head hanging and not looking at me.
I sat down at my desk across from him.
“Cole, please look at me.” I asked, my voice soft.
He looked up. I could see fear in his eyes. I knew he was afraid I’d discovered more venom to spew at him.
“Cole, I want to apologize to you. I did something very wrong and it’s taken me a long time to realize it. No matter what you did, I didn’t have the right to sleep with Justin. And I especially didn’t have the right to throw it in your face the way I did. I am deeply sorry and I hope you can forgive me.” I said, tears starting to roll down my cheeks.
Cole sat there stunned for a few moments, digesting what I’d just said. Then he slowly rose, walked over to me and got down on his knees in front of me. He reached out and put his arms around my waist and I put mine around his neck. He held me as I clung to him, my tears falling heavily now and quiet sobs wracking my body.
We didn’t say anything for a long time. Cole simply held me and let me cry it out. Finally, when I had myself more under control, he started speaking, his voice low and calming.
“BJ, I forgive you, man. Actually there’s nothing to forgive. I understand why you did it. I was just afraid I’d lose you to him. I’m sorry the whole thing happened to begin with. And you were right, that was my fault.” he said.
Cole got up and went over and poured two cups of coffee and brought one back to me. He sat down again across from me.
“But there’s one thing I want to say that I’ve been afraid to say all this time. I don’t want you to get angry all over again, though. I couldn’t deal with that.” he said, almost pleadingly.
“I won’t, Cole. I promise. Please, say what you want to say.” I told him, sipping at the hot coffee.
“I’m not saying that what I did was right. But we had never talked about it, BJ! I didn’t know that I was supposed to be faithful. I didn’t know I wasn’t supposed to fuck anybody but you! I love you. Nothing is going to change that. But I’m a guy! And so are you! Most guys can separate who they love from just a piece of ass. Can you understand that?” he asked.
“Yes, now I can. That’s something that Micah talked about today. He and Vince see nothing wrong with having sex with other people. They evidently have three-ways or they have sex without each other as well. But there was one interesting thing he said. He felt that because he and Vince were honest with each other and told each other what they were doing, then it wasn’t cheating. He considered it cheating if he or Vince would go behind each other’s backs and do it.” I told Cole.
“And that’s what I did.” Cole said. “And I think that’s part of the reason you took it so hard. We never talked about that. We never had a chance to find out how each other felt. I just assumed you would understand that it was just sex and didn’t mean anything to me. And I was wrong to assume that.”
“And I was just as wrong to assume that you would feel the way I felt. Cole, you need to understand something. I don’t know when you fell in love with me, when things changed between us where you’re concerned but it had happened a long time before for me. I’d loved you for a very long time. It was never just sex for me between us. I was just so afraid for so long to tell you.” I said.
“I finally figured that out when this whole thing happened. I honestly had no idea how strongly and deeply you felt about me. I had no idea that what I did would hurt you as deeply as it did.” he said. “You’ve got to believe me, BJ, I would never intentionally hurt you that way!”
He got up and started pacing up and down the room, obviously trying very hard to put things into words he’d never been able to before.
“ Actually, it was at that point that I finally realized how deeply I felt about you! I had no idea that you could hurt me that badly until you looked at me and told me you’d slept with Justin and that you had feelings for him.” he stopped a looked over at me. “That’s what killed me. I could have taken you fucking Justin. Hell, he’s a really good looking guy! I could even go for him. But you said that it meant something to you.”
He turned and walked away from me. I could tell he was having trouble keeping his emotions under control.
“That was a whole different thing! I was so scared because I finally figured out that I could lose you - and I also figured out how much I didn’t want that to happen.” he said, his voice quiet and husky with emotions.
I sat there and watched him for a moment. I could see his shoulders tremble and realized that he was crying now. I quickly got off the chair and, coming up behind him, wrapped my arms around him. I just held onto him for a while until he could get himself back under control. Then I grabbed his shoulders and turned him around so that he was facing me.
“And I realized that I didn’t want to lose you, either. I thought that’s what seeing you fucking her meant - that you wanted someone else, someone different. That you wanted to leave me.” I said, leaning my forehead on his shoulder. “And I lied about that, too! It did matter to me that it was a girl. I thought you not only wanted to leave me, but that you wanted to go straight or something. God knows, I could understand that. I know hiding what we are to each other hasn’t been very easy on you.”
His arms came up around me and he buried his face in my shoulder. We stood there together for a long time, neither of us saying a word.
“I have to admit to you, I was curious what it was like to fuck a girl. I’d never had the chance to before. I don’t know if you’ll believe this, but it really wasn’t any good. I had to think about you to get off.” he said softly, and I could hear in his voice that he was telling me the truth.
I looked up and he did, too. We looked each other right in the eyes.
“Well, I hope you’ve gotten that out of your system then, mister!” I tried looking stern, but I started to giggle.
“Fuck, BJ! A handjob from you would be better than fucking her! Believe me!” he laughed.
I took my arms from around him and walked over to one of the beds. We slept together each night in the same bed. We just moved from bed to bed in the room to make sure it looked like both got slept in. I sat down and patted the bed, motioning for Cole to join me. He sat down beside me and put his arm around my waist. I put my hand on his thigh.
“I want to ask you something, and I want you to tell me the truth. Ok?” I said.
“Ok. I promise to tell the truth, the whole truth and nothing but the truth!” Cole laughed. “You sounded so much like a lawyer then, I couldn’t help myself!”
“Please! You’re the one who wants to be a lawyer!” I laughed.
“Ok, so you’ll be the hard-bitten news reporter asking probing questions of the President.” he smiled.
“Well, I still have a question for you. Do you ever think about making it with other guys?” I asked.
I wasn’t afraid of his answer. I kind of figured that he did. I had to admit to myself that there were times when I would look at other guys and get a rush of desire. Not enough to push me to doing anything about it, but it was there. But Cole looked at me with suspicion in his eyes at this question. He looked like I’d just asked him to cross a mine-field.
“It’s ok, Cole.” I said softly, smiling. “I’m not going to get angry at you, no matter what you answer. I promise.”
“Ok. Yeah, I do sometimes.” he said, and then hurried to add, “But I wouldn’t do anything about it! I just look sometimes...you know...”
“Yes, I do know. Because I look sometimes, too. And sometimes it makes me feel guilty because I feel like I’m cheating on you. But I don’t love them. I just wonder what it would be like to fuck them. I guess I have to admit that I’m capable of having sex just for ‘a piece of ass’.” I told him.
“What brought this on?” he asked, amazed, I’m sure, at what he saw as a complete change of direction for me.
“It’s something that Micah said today. He said that there was a difference between physical and emotional fidelity. He said that the whole idea of physical fidelity and marriage had been developed because of titles and land. That it was important to a lord of a castle to know that the son he passed his title and castle to was really his son. But with two guys, neither one of us is going to go out and get pregnant with another guy’s baby! And neither one of us has a title or a castle to pass on.” I laughed and Cole laughed with me.
“No. No castle. And I swear to you, BJ, I’m not interested in loving somebody else. I figured out that I’ve been in love with you longer than I realized. You have always been there. And you’ve always cared about me. It was just that I didn’t always know what to do with that. Sometimes I still don’t. But I don’t want to lose that either. Can you understand?” he asked.
“Yeah, I think I can. One of the things that I’m beginning to understand is that people don’t think or love in the same way. That how I love you and how you love me are different because we’re different people. That isn’t bad, it just is the way things are.” I said.
“Boy! You must have been doing a lot of paying attention in your psych classes! And doing an awful lot of thinking!” Cole laughed.
“Yes, I guess I have. I didn’t feel comfortable with what happened between us and it just took me a long time to figure out what it was that was making me uncomfortable. So let me ask another question. What happens if Vince and Micah want to have sex with us?” I said.
“You’re shitting me, right? How the fuck do you want me to answer that one?!” he asked, looking like he’d been stuck in the electric chair and somebody had their hand on the switch.
“Honestly. How would you feel about it? Would you want to?” I asked, my voice purposely neutral.
“Oh, no! You answer that one!” he said. “I’m not even going to go there!”
“Ok, I will. Vince is a very attractive guy. So is Micah. If they wanted to and you were ok with it, I think I could get into it. I think it might be really hot to do something like that with you there. I wouldn’t want to do it on my own, I don’t think. But having you there as well, I think, would make it ok for me.” I said.
His face went through so many changes while I said this that I almost broke up laughing. From shock to wonder to horny is about 3 seconds!
“You mean that?! You actually would get into it?!” he blurted out. “God! BJ, this is like my ultimate fantasy come true!”
“It is? You’ve fantasized about having sex with me and other guys?” I asked.
All of a sudden, he seemed to realize how much he’d let go of and looked away.
“Well...yeah...sometimes....” he mumbled.
“Cole, I’m sorry! I know how afraid you’d be to tell me about that the way I was. But, trust me! I understand. I’m really kind of flattered that you included me in your fantasies.” I said.
“Really? You aren’t mad?” he asked, surprised.
“Really! I’m not mad. And if you want....I’ll prove it.” my hand reaching down and rubbing his crotch.
He moaned at my touch and I could feel that he was already half-hard. It took no time at all for him to become fully erect. It was also no time at all until I had him in my mouth. And not to much longer until he had me in his. A much better use for our mouths than talking right then.