Server Hiccups

If you have been trying to access superdrewby over the last 24 hours you will have noticed that it was totally and utterly not available. The problem was with my billing for the site - I had changed billing methods and since every time I tried to email my hosting comapny to tell them the emails were returned undelivered the site was suspended. Finally i actually managed to find someone on their online chat to fix up my account! It only took me a week of emails and finally a 45 minute online chat to gett he site back up and running.

It really pisses me off when companies do thees sorts of things, especially in light of how much trouble I have had with their server migration over the last couple of weeks. I would ahve expected that at the very least they should ahve given me a free month or two of hosting - considering that Superdrewby was down for basically over 2 weeks.

Clubbing

The boy was having a night with school friends last night so I decided to venture out to a club by myself and meet up with some friends. It has been so long since I was single that going out on my own can actually be a bit of a scary thing to do. And since I used to be part of a loose group of aquaintances when I used to go out I used to know people. But ike most groups of aquantainces we all went ouor own ways. So my modus operandi is to search for at least someone I know and latch onto them and their friends for the night. Sometimes this works and sometimes it doesn't work at all, in which case I usually finsih my one solitary drink and go home. I have found that generally younger guys don't come up and chat with me unless they are interested in sleeping with me. Since I am taken I am a bit hostile to these sorts of advances and immediately go into a defensive posture. Kind of like arms crossed over my chest and I lean backwards, away fromthe person and if they get in my personal space I try to take a few steps back. I don't know why I do this, because when the boy is with me I am much mure open to people talkin to me, and I will talk to anyone who happens to stop and say hi.

I can only surmise that I am subconciously making sure that they get the idea by either in your face obvious actions that I am taken and not interested in being picked up. Last night was a good night, I ran into a guy who I performed in a show nearly ten years ago when I had just come out of the closet and was still feeling my way throught he whole openly gay thing. We had an nteresting chat and he told me that when he knew me all those years ago I was very naive. Now that shocked me - I don't think anyone wants to be told they are or were naive. He meant it as a compliment to me, to explain that I had grown up and wa a really different and more worldy person now than I was then. I took it well but thought about what he meant and I realised ack then I was. I had very little experience in the world and didn't really know much about myself or about being gay. I also realised that it took me many years to get where I am now, and I also rea;ised that i am still growing and will always continue to grow and learn.

I am probably still naive in many ways and I accept that, but I am looking forward to the growth and learning in the future!

12:29:00 PM