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Monday, September 01, 2008

Sheer Panic

Last night at a friend's Birthday party as I ate a piece of chocolate cake (my first in weeks) I had what I thought was something stuck to the back of one of my teeth.

I tried everything to get rid of it.

But then the harsh horror hit me, there was nothing stuck to my tooth, in fact I had lost half of my tooth!

I am terrified to the point of inability to function by the Dentist. I am anxiety ridden and in a blind panic, I haven't been to the Dentist in a good ten years even though I know I should have because I have had bad teeth and bad gums as a teenager through neglect and a chronically dry mouth.

So now on Wednesday for the first time in ten years I have to go to the Dentist for an 'assessment' then I have another hour next week to start fixing whatever.

But after not going to the Dentist for ten years I am terrified at what they will find, my mind is playing out all sorts of horrendous scenarios in my head.

I am not even sure with Valium I will be able to site back in that chair and even vaguely relax.

It's a nightmare but on the other side this is one of those fears and phobias that I know can only be addressed and solved by going.

The last time I went to the Dentist I had three cavities fixed, and I fainted after getting up from the chair.

But at least this time I am not going to my previous dentist who I did not like and I am going to a Dental practice owned by the wife of an ex work colleague, although I am seeing the partner in the practice who I have met at a dinner party

She tried to convince me over dinner that I should come and see her then!

So Wednesday morning I will for the first time in ten years have to confront one of my biggest phobias!

4 Comments:

At Mon Sep 01, 06:34:00 PM EST, Blogger Snickers said...

So thats why you dissapeared!

god thats awful!

I havent been to the dentist since I was a kid and either but I'm more terrified of the bills that I just wouldnt be able to afford more than anything

 
At Mon Sep 01, 07:30:00 PM EST, Blogger Superdrewby said...

yep - at first I thought it was something stuck to my teeth but then when I realised that half my tooth was missing it sent me into a blind panic!

 
At Tue Sep 02, 04:53:00 AM EST, Blogger Jon Cox said...

Ohh WOW!! That is so terrible...I'm so sorry. :o( I wish you the very BEST and I hope everything works out.

 
At Tue Dec 23, 06:16:00 PM EST, Anonymous Valium Prescription Information said...

My name is Kym Rose and i would like to show you my personal experience with Valium.

I am 30 years old. Have been on Valium for 30 days now. Valium helped me realize that many of my symptoms WERE anxiety related. Got prescribed 5mg every 8 hours for leg and arm spasms.(Only need at most 1 a day) Only bad thing is the vivid dreams after a few days of use.

I have experienced some of these side effects -
Giddiness, drowsiness.

I hope this information will be useful to others,
Kym Rose

 

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